blues attack
Monday, July 11th, 2005suddenly i had this uncomfortable feeling that i have not served my life’s purpose. call it blues, or even yet a pre-quarter life crisis.
i’ve just realized tat i have overstayed my stay in college. it took me a really long time, three long years, that is, to finally realize what i really want to do inlife. had i figured it out right after high school, i wouldn’t be such a loser right now.
don’t get me wrong, i love what i’m doing right now. i even love the people i’m with at the college of music. it’s just that i feel old, and that i should be doing something worthwhile for myself and my family.
everyone i knew from highschool seemed to have finished their bachelor’s degrees. some have even moved on to law school. but i’m still stuck as an undergraduate. even my closest pals have decent and well-paying jobs.
and there’s the fact that my two other siblings are already in college. i am fortunate to have been accepted in the premier state university. but still my prolonged stay in school is a big burden to my parents.
maybe i should look for work and be independent. i don’t know… i’m at lost with what i should do.
if only i’ve been better…
