total wreck
Wednesday, April 18th, 2007just when i thought that finally i met the ONE then came the most painful truth i dread to know - that friends are all we ever could be.
for the past weeks i’ve been living in 7th heaven simply because i thought he’s the guy for me… so much for this incredibly sweet and funny guy… while we’ve been going out on dates, exchanging sweet messages and stuff, never did it occured to me that all were too good to be true… as if i’ve just been given a preview of the type of relationship i’ve been longing for… teasers… i never thought that everything’s gonna end so soon…
found out he’s already in a relationship… stupid guy, he’s a perfect candidate for the military’s concealment corps… really good at keeping important details… or he could be part of intelligence services… really good at lies…
is keeping the truth a form of lying? though he didn’t outrightly lied to me, he did concealed the truth… which makes me hurt more… this week i’ve been both a physical (i’ve had the flu) and emotional wreck… so much emotions that i couldn’t even cry… i know i don’t deserve any of this emotional trash… i’ve been honest from day one and he knew it!
i asked him why he kept the truth from me… he said i didn’t ask… stupidity…
total wreck… am in need of an overhaul, pronto!
